you know those days that just start off on the wrong foot and keep getting wronger? well that was today.
it all started innocently enough. last night i drove up to the shop as i was supposed to make a couple of deliveries for the now defunct wood company. well i got here and there was no heat. because the propane tank was empty. the one i just had filled in october and we have been here a total of maybe 10 times since then. fail. epic fail.
i found all the blankets i could. if you think i am joking i am not. i had two down comforters, a target blanket, a blanket my mom made, and a quilt. ALL the blankets.
i woke up this lovely friday morning and it was 48 degrees in the apartment. weeeeee freezing.
i tried to get everything done and i failed. failed miserably. and then i cried. ugly ugly girl cried. big ole crocodile tears.
darwin talked me off my ledge and he was right, at the end of the day it's not worth getting hurt if i can't get everything done. the wood company will still be here monday and i can reassess then to get everything accomplished. risking driving a truck and trailer when i am upset isn't a good idea and it isn't safe. so i cancelled today.
i cancelled an entire day.
i got everything prepped, that i could, for delivery next week.
i did some laundry.
i took apart this beautiful bookshelf so that i can put it at my house.
i also scored Oiselle distance shorts for $20 with shipping. #winning
all in all cancelling this friday hasn't been so terrible. once i got the tears subsided i calmed down considerably.
i can be really hard on myself and i then in turn set unrealistic expectations. i am slowly learning that is a terrible way to live my life (--->SLOW LEARNER<---). i am taking the rest of the day to find the calm and hopefully keep some of it.